My inner war...

So, I feel like I'm in a battle with myself most days. Different topics but constantly feeling like I have an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other. Today the sermon was on Ecclesiastes 5:10-17, it was amazing and it was exactly what I needed. Of course, every Sunday it is exactly what I need and I feel like he picks his sermons just for me. We are struggling with money right now not really in a bad way just because we went back to school and now have to play catch up with bills, student loans, personal loans and still have the everyday bills and expensises that come with having kids. I've never felt so wonderful when I hear a sermon as I do at TBC. I love to learn about the bible and learn about the verses he is preaching about. Use it in my life.

In BFG, which most people refer to as Sunday School. We talked about Jesus's coming. Are you ready? Are you saved? Are you scared? I believe in Jesus and I am saved. I also am not perfect and I sin on a daily basis. I try very hard to think before I act and do....it sounds silly and cliche' but I ask myself..."What would Jesus do?" How would be respond to this? How would be help someone in this situation? What would he tell my 7 yr old that is getting teased by others?

I believe when Jesus comes my family will all go with him to eternal life. Am I still scared? I'll admit I am...a little bit... So this makes me ask myself? Am I a bad person? Am I doubting Jesus????

I don't know why lately I'm being so pulled but I am....I have tons more to unload but I need to sleep so that as long as I am on this earth I can provide for my loved ones with the job I love.

Peace & Love,